In fairness I am not loathing all of it, it is nice to see the boys of VD3 again, and having an apartment is nice. Now to the stuff of my loathing. My friends have gotten into going to the bars, which freaking sucks for me since:
1) I don't drink, this fact makes going to the bars almost useless and is dibilitating in many ways, espcecially at the bars, eg: talking to random people, hard to do when you are sober, or picking up chicks, hard to do with a moral conciousness which most people have when sober, which leads me to my next reason
2) Meeting people, girls are surrounded by guys who basically want to get in their pants, and grind on them, me, I am not so into that, so striking up a lively conversation about life is a bit strange to them, espcially the ones who want the attention from the males. This also leads to disheartening situations such as the one tonight, I was coming back from the bathroom and was trying to walk by and a girl starts dancing in front of me, not noticing me, I put my arms up and try to walk by, and she pushes me away as if I was trying to dance up on her. That was a pretty bad shot to my self esteem, I know it is stupid and I should just blow it off, but it still hurts. What this leads me to want to do, once I get up the courage, is dance up on pretty much every hot chick at some bar I go to, just for the sheer experimentation of it. Basically try to be as rediculously social as possible, this will take some regrouping time.
3) Going to the bars you don't see the best type of people there, basically the people you see at the bars are skanks and tools, it is a few steps above going to a frat party. Seeing these people basically makes me hate people more and more.

It is weird at home I really wanted to be back at school, and at now school is starting to pisss me off. I hope when classes start up fully I will be more busy and have less time to worry about this junk. I also hope Tae Kwon Do will help me build up more confidence for my historic assault against bar culture, because when I did Tae Kwon Do it made me feel alot better about myself, just working out in general. I should start again. I should but will I, who knows, only time will tell.

So I got back from Oklahoma at 3am last night from picking up my car with my dad. He drove 22 hours so we could go and get this car for me. I really can't say how much that means to me. But the news is that my new car is a white 1997 Honda Civic LX. It has a manual trasmission so I have been practicing that. It is like learning to drive all over again. It is fun, and I am enjoying being able to be in controll of the car. I want to fix this car up and make it my baby. I am going to take it to the shop and have them give it a complete looking over. I hope it doesn't cost too much to fix and clean everything. I also need to get my car a good washing, it is pretty dirty. The driving shift is fun, I have been staying in my neighborhood lately but I think maybe tonight I will take it out to get it washed or something. My biggest worry is it stalling out at a light or something like that.

I am going to Batavia either today or tomorrow to visit my room mates for next year, so we can sort out all the stuff we need to get and who will be buying what. It is going to be pretty expensive all the stuff we have to buy for the apartment. We also decided to not get cable TV. This should be a good/difficult change for me, but really TV is just way too much of a distraction. Oh if anyone has suggestions on things to get for my apartment that I usually wouldn't think of, I would really appreciate it.